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Glued to about the tip of the orange juice bottle still damp the cheap white chocolate wrap and the twice-folded tissue paper God knows its use for sure and oh the black pot still plagued by a layer of varied dregs and scraps that are impossible to rid of even by hardpressing the sandwiching sponge whatever since yesterday or even much earlier I have been sitting here speculating about it two shattered crackers of the Deutsche Bank card I couldn't really pronounce must be it not an old habit but merely a screen that rotates transformers that used to flicker with the old image of purebred of hybred dog's head dipped in composure like the glass can of honeylemon tea from Korea I suppose it shall rather be citrus peels otherwise how the heck is it not sour and is honestly dissimilar to what was once instead the reused pickle bottle with their granny's big monochromatic printed slantly under the plastic foil it tastes just different you know I don't know though it ain't going to rot before delivery it's quite a pity such sumptuous amount squandered on believes or what not today is different I shall reassure myself because it's leap day hmm what a pastime the four streets to the front of which I remember the name of only one there are of course also two bars opening till well past midnight circa one or two in the morning isn't it illegal to do so in here as I strolled with my hands twisted deep down into the pockets of the new Wellensteyn surcoat was naturally a dap damp and I was for a moment concerned what about in a few months of time it starts to stink then wasting the two hundred thirty something euro however to circle plainly around the platz what was I thinking about what conclusions to reach too many complexities and life's dopey questions to arise everything is tangled and twined and threesomed together and no single way to put forth something of worth what is the worth afterall you swore you are gonna walk at least as much as the last day in Chengdu and it's not even one tenth of it now what always better to proclaim and disclaim than to convolve above this black seat oh just recalled the Korean girl she stayed here for one or two nights thought I could’ve had an affair with her like Husain did but I didn't text message anyone I'm here not to play Rainbow Six all day yet what else is worthwhile to pursue in the end buying a train ticket is too costly for him and tram ticket for me all excuses don't want to talk with you no more what if you shoveled yourself one day cannot permit still genuinely care for a person's life I will die for you and I will live for you what muddled heads of Radwimps accented Japs who's the Turkish friend let me Facebook him oh it's Ozan where he's up after the fat cats and also Atabak he must have come back from America and saw the dump there but didn't tell me didn't even complain has it gotten so awkward for everybody or in this society nobody gives a fuck to anybody oh now Luli she was thrown over how does it feel to have slept with me on this tiny bed a secret to shed below the blue mattress are gunks that cannot be vacuumed don't scold me I did try but sorry I shouldn't kick you during the night behind the shut door those two human beings what fun they are having what fun I haven't had the privilege to have since last year this year is 2016 tomorrow must be a sunny day this is my life fuck it kiss of a woman's bottom that baby unforgettable Friday with rain at the green building never got over it even the Auschwitz lady turned out fine everything will be fine tears on your face will dry you are so beautiful you will become so ugly no make-up please remember there's no pain your body cannot process laugh always laugh on laugh on and on and on holding hands irretrievably once I hear this song you happen to hear it also an honest coincidence seventy-five percent of the second anti-pickle gel is run down but the scent and smell and flavor covered by smoke but everything lucidly painfully it is my fault I concede it is my defeat I concede but no my soul is not broken either Fuse or things in the future I will one day stand firmly on the ground again to celebrate but I have missed it how could I have missed where is the gang now as I look around where are all the steps on the snow snow has melted long ago really and all the traces are gone please stop looking you should trust it regardless nothing in you is more important than you but you my heart is clogged I don't know should I return two cans of beefs no ramen left I should still laterwards travel to Rewe to fetch otherwise I will starve the can opener the protruding color covered on the cover the unmade beddings lie so sluggishly beside the sole window and the changing sky outside woke me up in the morning in the morning my face was brightened ouch benzoyl peroxide burn stretch the pajamas and all the willow catkins flying in the air above the shambles and wasteland the powerful time I dreamed of going to Peking of going to Harvard of in Jacobs and I am eventually here Gao is tolerating with him he is supposed to be my burden I incurred him bought him whisky thought he can be dependable but no you overestimate things the shaking heads in the cheap hotel punk rock you may have never known it is inertia you know in the rose garden when the natural gas hasn't come no carrots haven't you mentioned before to me that it is harmful and dearly beloved till this day hypocrisy controversy heresy in the emergency room are you worried I certainly was not Ja Chinese dialects after all these seasons my back is bent my feet are puffy the aerated basketball I don't play albeit the court is just a minute away I don't know why I no longer play it from the big room I can see but from here it is not possible he told me I can move back but how can I move back there are no backsies everything is arranged decided determined guided settled here and it would be costly to revert them all back is it not I am not going to eat China Express Hong Kong Express again or I would but to what ends in what moods should I be doing it how was the cigarettes I apologize for my departure please don't feel anything I would haven't existed a few centuries later even with Alcor bet consolation prize red mausoleum street side vendor vending machine toll taker banker politician aging grandmother all of these recluses you won't understand you just won't but what's up with this what's up with these crying and mourning what's up with these striking piano keys what's up with these photos in Google Photos are they just rites is life just a set of rites we consciously obey for no better reason than the very obeisance itself finished downloading eleven times and all of those bumper stickers no today is not today is different last year today I haven't done a thing the chopsticks the bowl the nail clipper the red button string on the other shirt I still haven't discarded those shirts simply because I can't afford to replace them see us in poverty have something to feel proud of but listen listen you dickhead don't listen to those people you are gonna be alright on your own you are alright already I promise later this day I will be circling the platz yet again and glancing westwards o' so many things are always there the west my neck is a bit stiff while the dumpling bar's moved in well maybe just maybe from tomorrow I will all of a sudden change shape to live up to the sight of supermarket I'd mostly definitely not be able to know you in the coming months who pretends to tell the difference between a naked mute and a plated wack those two Brits though it was such elegance much education that ain't gonna fit my fried rice with egg too much rice too much egg too much salt but hey it's pretty decent filling enough carbohydrates for a day's need my brain is still functioning soundly and I have not taken multivitamin pill in days in a row and why are you wailing is the world crumbling isn't it another ordinary week of the ordinary people naturally explode spontaneously eyes popping out this is our fate I'm told the very moment everything becomes clear all hath been coincidences without tomato spice pointless to buy eggs any more actually bought ExpressVPN fruit cans Netflix renewal six unrecyclable bottles of fifty percent orange juice bought everything to my satiation see I will have nothing to purchase in the near future but let us just wait and see the luggage is open I still fail to figure out why it was so heavy in the first place big eyed in black coat like I do kedai with you no negativity I'm severely drought no matter how much I force myself to drink no I said no I will not perhaps but what comes after that no I don't want to I'm so sorry but I shan't I can't I won't the telephone has rung again somebody's knocking let him open up the door and greet hey man very nice to see you have a good day peace out luv you and the price has gone up inexplicably unfortunately too bad.